Why am I so INSISTENT I’m straight and polyandrist?

Why, because I want what I want and people STILL keep pushing OTHER stuff on me like they were deaf and my words were just white noise to them.

I’m a CIS-gendered heterosexual polyandrist, right? Polyandry wasn’t always a given thing to me; I thought of myself as a monogamist for most of my life, until I realized how romantic a polyandrist lifestyle could be. I tend to come out of any closet as soon as I find there is something fake or not quite authentic about me, I see it, I say so. That’s what I do. But I am now… Over-emphasising, and I kinda agree that I do, the heterosexual and polyandrist combination. And there’s a reason why I do it: I find it unusual that women are this way, and I also find men to be scared to even look at a woman when I’m, on top of everything, quite sexually passive – but not exactly quiet about any of it.

I feel like men always find themselves doing something wrong with women. I believe closeted lesbians are somewhat of a problem here. They may not KNOW they’re lesbian, so they think they’re speaking for all women everywhere, when they tell men “women” need care, love, sexual restraint, money, and status in order to love a man. These are not the motivations of a straight woman. We want cock. 😀 We want to be FUCKED, and when we are in the fuck mood, money, status, marriage, and commitment doesn’t really stay on our mind any more than it stays in the mind of a man… We might JUST be conscious enough to make sure no unwanted babies come out of it, but fuck do we care if we never see the guy again – it was fun for a night, wasn’t it? No loss there. A closeted lesbian will feel they were stolen from. Fuck without a payment.

I further believe lesbian women who are hitting on men also overcompensate for their lack of loving feelings. The reason why I think they might do this (and this is not real knowledge as I’m rarely there) is that their feelings are not really in danger in that relationship. Rather than fearing saying too much, revealing too much too soon, they must emphasize to the guy how they are going to love him better than other women will. They’re going to fuck like a freaking pro. Straight women with feelings at stake will hint toward big feelings, but they’re not going to go on their knees begging for love… Well, not unless you do it first.

Straight women believe men don’t really want a relationship, so we expect men to chase us. We expect sonets from men, not the other way around – I think. No sonnets, and it was sexual the whole time and we fully understand and don’t judge. We understand why men and women fuck for fun, and it’s all good. Too bad, too sad, right?

How do you know I want what I want instead of just playing some character?

Frankly, I don’t know if there is a way for a person to know what truly goes on in the hidden parts of another person’s psyche. If they don’t want you to know, I suspect you can’t tell. You certainly cannot be blamed for believing what I say is true.

There are some ways to test it. Am I admitting when I DON’T like something, like, for instance, fucking women? I know some of you would prefer I were bisexual. I’m not, I’m sorry, can’t help you there. Not going to happen. I won’t do ass-to-mouth no matter how much you’ll beg. I’ll sooner do ass-to-mouth than a lesbian thing. I say I have 3 things I don’t do: piss, shit, and women. In the order of severity. I might cave on piss and shit, but women are a certain no go.

So, some of you wiseasses insist I’m a lesbian and over-compensating. I mean… TRULY?! Doesn’t that just leave us to the situation where you can FREELY decide what I meant, or what I actually want, and ignore EVERYTHING I’m saying? Can’t we all just stop communicating and decide on each other’s behalf what they “truly want”?

So, until I say otherwise, I mean what I say, take me for my word, the same way as I imagine you all wish to be taken. At any rate, that’s how our laws work, or at least should work; if I say I don’t want you to fuck me, I mean it. If you do, that’s a rape. Male or female, it’s still a rape. Now, if I say I consent to be fucked by anyone my Dom wants me to (or anyone in a certain group of men) consider it a consent, EVEN IF I WILL regret it later. My words, my mistake, my bad. My responsibility to get therapy on my own fucking dollar.

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